I am reading Tom Ewer’s Manifesto from his Leaving Work Behind blog. He is expressing my feelings so well. Now I need to apply them!
“Leaving Work Behind is about creating the freedom to do what you want, when you please.”
“Leaving Work Behind is about creating a clear separation between the modern marriage of “success” and financial wealth. True success is happiness, which is largely driven by factors other than financial wealth.”
I know my biggest problem is my fear of the unknown. I don’t like surprises, good or bad. I admit it, I am a bit of a controlling personality, all right, all right, I am a control freak. Happy now? I have admitted it. Now I have to let it go. Not easy, not comfortable. Doable? Hmmm…. Time for commitment or submission. Do I want to submit to the will of employers? Do I want to follow the guidance of my thoughts? Ok, it is the latter so COMMIT. I hereby commit to actually work at LEAVING WORK BEHIND. Tom, lead the way please!
In the words of Theodore Roosevelt: “In any moment of decision, the best things you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do it nothing.”
I have been trying to convince myself to stay at Amazon throughout January. Not happily or successfully but just because of the paycheck. I have decided that January this year, in Kansas, in a Hi-Lo camper, is not for me. Now to get myself moving through this last week of commitment to Amazon, to get packed and moving down the road. I feel lighter with the decision made but am fighting the demons of doubt yet again.
I have a plan, I have a tentative schedule (last day at Amazon 19th which means 4 AM on Friday the 20th) then a couple of days in Wichita with the kids, then to New Mexico and Arizona. I have solar, I have generator and I have propane heater. I will be fine. I just need to get the small details ironed out and I am on the road to explore new country.